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Things were not going my way, I was grumpy, feeling negative, saying alot of negative things. I felt that I was potentially going bad.
But I'm glad that God's Grace was with me throughout the day =). He made me conscious of everything that I was doing and thinking, so I slapped myself whenever I did or said or thought anything negative. I slapped myself alot yesterday =).
Today, DG meeting was great =). I learnt more about God today. God's word is indeed wonderful, and like Jesus, we can use Him to fight off the devil's temptations =).
Jesus loves me this I know =)!
CANT WAIT FOR SATURDAY. WOOTS. LIVING MY LIFE ONE SATURDAY AT A TIME =D! [Keith wrote this, thanks for reading! =D]Y,
9:59 PM
Honestly, I don't feel that anything has changed about me. The baptism renewed my heart, renewed the fire in it, but I dont think I've changed. Yet.
What I do note is that I changed in my thinking, sorta. I used to listen to worship songs to try and get the "feeling" going before heading to worship or just quiet time. But now I realized something very important to me. For me to feel the holy spirit, my own voice must be praising him or worshipping him.
Not very deep, but it wasn't as obvious to me. I used to think listening to the song, just thinking about it was enough, but no, I got to want to sing praises to my Father, to worship him alone =).
Not bad =).
11:48 PM
HILLSONG!!!
I went to the hillsong concert last saturday. It was awesome. I wanna get Hillsong songs! Haha.
But sadly, due to the after effect of blogging a few days after a memorable event, most of the memories of it are gone =(. But I'm try my best to name out the most important one for me.
Pastor Judah Smith said that us teens, we are just like a dead person in an open casket. The way we do things, the way how we ignore God, we're just like the Living dead. We're alive, but we're dead on the inside. And this part spoke to me a lil. The bible says that Jesus touched the dead person, and he arose. The more accurate translation of touch in Greek was to be "to grab". Jesus didn't really touch the person, he GRABBED him. I think this also shows how much he loves us, how much he wants us to awake from that world and be saved.
Another part was when they called up the people who wants to follow Jesus, or has decided to follow Jesus for the rest of his life. I raised my hand, stood up, then walked up up front. The part where they asked for those who have sickness or illnesses or diseases to raise their hands, believe in Jesus and they will be healed. I closed my eyes, and raised my hand. I don;t know whether it counts, but my ankle has been hurting me since who knows when. A slight tap would cause me to cringe. But I want to be healed, so I raised my hand. Then I felt my friends' hands on me, praying for me. I really believed that Jesus can and will heal me. Soon enough, at the next song, a miracle happened. In the past, I couldn;t jump much for songs because my heels hurt if I don't warm up. Obviously, I didn't have warm up, but I just jumped to the song that played which I cannot remember =(. It didnt hurt at all! I could hop continuously with no pain! And I didnt warm up! Jesus healed me =). When I went home, I could feel it recovering as well!
And these two were major events of the hillsong concert that I will remember =). Really tired now, gotta head to bed =). Night everyone, god bless!
[Keith wrote this, thanks for reading! =D]Y,8:44 PM
After that, went back to KAPT where the pastor held a prayer meeting for us. one of the many highlights of my best day. Honestly, I was half listening to sermon, half joking around with John. But my God is a faithful God, and he forgives me and rewards me. When he called those who were to be baptised that day to come up, we sang a song, about how we have come, to sing of his love, to sing of glory. And indeed, it really spoke to me. I have finally come before my Lord, finally reached this point in my life where I can say,"Jesus Christ is my Lord my savior and I want to walk with him for the rest of my life." Finally. As I was singing/praying, someone laid me down on the floor, and I can feel a multitude of people praying for me. That's when it happened. I was speechless, thoughtless before the Lord for a moment, and He gave me the Gift of Tongue. I received the Gift of Tongue! It felt so natural. I had prayed before about asking God why have I not received the Gift of Tongue, and He answered me simply that I am not ready. And now, to show me indeed I am ready to call myself His Son, He gave me the Gift of Tongue, which I prayed to him for! God answers prayers! Honestly, there came a point when I decided that the Gift of Tongue would be nice, but as long as I can speak to God, I am happy. Well, with the Gift of Tongue, God my Father made me twice as happy =). Really, really happy. My God is the one true God =).
After that, it was time we made our way to East Coast. My mum came! I love my mum and all, I am not ashamed of her, but she's my muuuuuuuuuummmm. I don't really want to let her see how I act around my friends =p. Anyway, we got on the bus and off we went. Half way, I got really worried that Ivan and Ivin wouldn't be able to come on time, but fortunately, they did =). Thank God that they were able to see me be renewed =).
We lined up, Cher Young helped us took Pictures. Me and John were being baptised that day =). Real glad that I am baptised on the same day as him. I feel that *maybe* it's a sign from God that we are going to great things for our church together one day =). To me, I felt that the process of baptism is indeed special, but what happened after the baptism was beyond words. I was guided to the spot in the middle, and uncle Alex asked me some questions, Do I believe in him, am I willing to follow Jesus for the rest of my life? With a big smile across my face, I said,"Yes." I went into the water, and came out. The old me died in the water, the new me arose.
When I arose, I was greeted with an abundancy of smiling faces, of cheery voices. Everywhere people were saying "Congratulations!" Without reason, I felt happy. I felt, the happiest I have ever been for my entire life. I got out of the water, and alot of people hugged me, congratulated me. High Fives were thrown, Cheers resounded. All the way, I was beaming from ear to ear, with a smile unknown to me. I felt.. blessed. Overjoyed. Coming out from a dark, cold place, I was greeted with light, and warmth from the people that I love. I felt that.. maybe, just maybe, this is how heaven will be like when we ascend =). Being greeted with smiling faces and cheers, people congratulating for having made it, and you of course, being elated beyond all reason. Of course, being happy for one reason is that finally, you're about to see your Father. I feel that baptism, maybe is also a pre-show, to show you exactly how heaven will be like when you ascend. Because that is certainly how I felt. Like I was in Heaven.
Ivin was there, he congratulated me and gave me a big hug despite me being all wet and sandy. I really appreciated him being there for me. Ivan was hiding behind a tree! Haha =p. While waiting for John, I bid farewell to Ivin and his girlfriend ^^. John came out, and I wanted him to feel exactly how I felt, overjoyed, welcomed, loved. I gave him a highfive, gave him a big hug, and cheryoung took pictures =D. Then as we were all about to leave, I wanted to take a picture with my mum. That's when she started getting cheeky and tried to kiss me infront of all my friends O_o. NOT NOW MUMMMYYYYYYY! LOL. Any way, everything ended up like this.
I love my mum, the mum that God gave me =).
So yeah, after lots of picture taking, I took my leave and left east coast to buy stuff for the steamboat at Jx's house, which was AMAZING.
The food was of course, delicious. But it's the people you eat it with that makes steamboat fun and meaningful. We all played Truth & truth, cuz with the people there, die die dont want do dare. Haha =D. Anyway what we talked about at the table will not leave the table, so I'll just leave it in that we all grew a little closer with each other today. Isn't that right, Nicholas Jeredy Ivan Jin Xuan Zheng Hou Ken Kiat Wei Qiang Wei Chuan =)? Our hopes and dreams, our dream houses... Let's run forward with all we got.
Our "promise" to one another, to never leave each other, to always be friends, and to chase our dreams with all we got. One life, one shot.
I love these guys. But unfortunately, some guys couldn't make it. GET WELL SOON KJ!
I will walk with you for the rest of my life, my Lord, serving you as a living sacrifice, a living testimony that Jesus lives and LOVES US ALL!
[Keith wrote this, thanks for reading! =D]Y,12:52 AM
I like this photo cause it seems a couple of magicians/gamblers/conmen, hiding stuff in our sleeves/pockets, and looking damn cool at the same time. Haha!
This one looks like CSI: SBM. =DD. OFFICE WORKERS WE ARE NOT =DD!
So anyway, after a series of.... questionable events, me and ethan went to the stadium to wait for the Ultimate! Frisbee competition to start. My feet still hurt a tad lol. Had to wear my younger brother's soccer boots. The games were quite fun, for my first time playing =p. I had fun faking the living daylights out of my opponents! Run here, fake there, fake there, fake there, fake there, short run, fake there, continue run, fake fake fake, sprint, spin, catch, score =p. Haha! I THINK one of the goals I scored the sequence was like this =p. Had to leave early at 6 tho, took a cab and rushed to Kallang to meet the guys to go indoor to see KOBE.
Seeing Kobe in person was.... sepctacular. Awesome. Jaw-dropping. I think meeting him in person would cause my whole universe to explode. I kept shouting to Aaron "IT'S KOBE!" in a very loud and exasperated voice. Since I didn't make it in the trials, losing the opportunity to meet him in person, the only reason I wanted to go to it was to make it hurt for me. To make it sting my heart. And boy, did it hurt like mad.
You see this huddle of players? And Kobe? I could've been there, as one of the players. Daaaaaammmmmnnnnn. Srsly, throughout the whole event, it hurt like mad. A million needles, piercing over and over again, turning it into the world's minc-iest mince meat. I made mistakes, I didn't try hard enough. But this is my way of picking myself up, motivating me further. To make it hurt so much that nothing I train will feel as bad. Srsly, there was this physical pain I felt in my chest throughout the whole event. Even after it ended, I just sat there, and stared at the court as Kobe walked off it.
I could've been there, training with the elites, being noticed. Playing the game that I love. But I wasn't. So it hurt like mad.
But I understand, this is part of God's plan for me. If I had made it in, it would've turned me complacent, it would've made me egotistic, I wouldn't try so hard anymore. To me, this is God's way of telling me,"You can work harder, Keith. Achieve your utmost best." Which was true, for basketball I wasn't working hard as of late. Au contrary, I had no time at all. But thinking back, amongst all the projects and studying, I could've sneaked a little basketball in. I could've trained my dribbles. I could've trained my physical. But I didn't. I got lazy and complacent. As such, I feel God is reminding me that if I want anything, he would grant me it, but I would've to work for it as well. Faith without action is dead.
Dig deep. No one can motivate yourself best except you. ~ Kobe Bryant ~
[Keith wrote this, thanks for reading! =D]Y,12:14 AM
I missed today's church service. Next week's my baptism. I are disappointed. [Keith wrote this, thanks for reading! =D]Y,
9:09 PM
10:53 PM
So yeah. I decided to be baptised. I had my baptism lesson with my cg leader, Noah, today. He wanted me to think about the three lessons that I learnt today, and think it throughly, because this is a life decision. To be honest, I already decided to go for baptism before the lessons, as I believe I was shown three subtle signs and one very direct one. But I want to think it throughly again. To see whether I'm doing it for the right reasons. But Noah did bring up one very interesting topic. There are only two important decisions you have to make in life . That is, whether you want to walk with Jesus and God for the rest of your life, and marriage.
Kobe Bryant, the best basketball player in the NBA right now, is coming to singapore on the 22nd. His FREE tickets are available to the first 1000 who show up at Wisma Atria on Thursday. I'm thinking of skipping my lecture just so I can go get some. *Thinking* about it still. Lol.
Again, I can't exactly let my imagination take flight right now because of school work. Turns out, Marketing project is due next week, Economics the following week, and then Effective writing the next. And then, will come the major examinations.
I can't wait for the holidays. So many things planned =).
9:11 PM
11:22 PM
This wall that I have built all my life, it protects me from people on the outside who wants to hurt me. But it also prevents God's Love from reaching me. Too long, have I been hiding behind this wall, hurting myself more than anyone can ever hurt me. But I don't want to condemn myself anymore. I want to God's Love. Tearing down this wall will be hard, people will hurt me, but it's the only way I can feel God's Grace. God. I love you. Change me for the better.
Sorry for the few, and very... not-happy posts these past few posts =p. Lately, life has been very hectic. I hardly have time for anything else, let alone blog a meaningful, enriching post that would enlighten the lives of all that read it. I haven't written something whilst exerting my grammer and vocabulary, using my imaginative juices in a long time, I'm afraid it might turn rusty. I should be writing something good soon. I want to write =p. I want to play basketball. I want to hang out with my church friends. I want to hang out with my secondary school friends. I want to hang out with my poly friends. I want to hang out with my campus crusade friends. I want to train. I want to go to gym.
But most of all, I feel I need God's Love. I want to let him have control over my life, so I don't really know what I want in life now. These are my earthly wants, these are the friends I've grown up with and the friends that I've met and bonded within a short amount of time, and I treasure everyone dearly. I pray that God will not let me stray from these people, I know that they are good. I hope that someday, I'll be able to show them the love that God has shown me so far =).
26July 09'. Can't wait. [Keith wrote this, thanks for reading! =D]Y,
12:46 AM
NO GETTING INTO A RELATIONSHIP UNTIL I'M 21. [Keith wrote this, thanks for reading! =D]Y,
7:44 PM
I want to thank God for granting me the energy to do all that =). There are two things that will never change with him: He sent his son down to die for us, saving us from sin. And He loves us. [Keith wrote this, thanks for reading! =D]Y,
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