I think the sin that afflicts me most is laziness. I simple cannot wake up early everyday, as much as I want to make it a habit. I always tend to just enjoy the feeling of having just woken up, lying on my bed, enjoying the morning, and then falling right back to sleep again. As awesome a feeling as it is, that must change. They say that people who can't wake up in the morning are people who don't have anything to look forward to in their days. And I feel, that's pretty sad. I have things to look forward to, things that I love, so by right I should be able to wake up. And I will, tml =). haha. I was listening to this song as I rushed to Church this morning, and it really hit the nail on the head. It's "I wanna Live" by Stellar Kart.
Sometimes all I try to do
Is maybe sleep til noon
And now I’m thinking
Less is more more
Will I ever get out,
Out the door
What’s the point anyway
Another meaningless day
Is there any reason
Why I shouldn’t waste
All my time
[Pre-Chorus]
I need a change of scenery
Unlock the door and
Set me free
[Chorus]
I wanna live like today
Could be my last day
To give all I have
Before it’s too late
Goodbye to all the
Fear and doubt ‘cause this
Love is what life is all about
Sometimes I lie awake at night
Playing back my whole life
If the way I see this world
Could change
All the differences would fade
I’m gonna play it out again
When I hear your voice
I’ll take your hand
I’ll try to change what I’ve become
And love like Jesus does
[Pre-chorus]
[Chorus]
I really do sometimes sleep till noon just to see if I could do it. Now I feel doing that is just wasting one meaningless day after another. If let's say I make it a habit to sleep at 10, 11 pm and wake up at 8, 9 am everyday, life would be so much better, healthier and more meaningful. "And now I'm thinking less is more." I truly agree with this. To me, this means that less sleep, would mean a more meaningful day. I slept at 2am the night before. I told myself to wake up at 8am or 9am today so that I can make it in time for church, but in the end, I rolled around in the morning once i woke up at 815, and found myself waking up at 1130 and rushing to church. I sacrificed two hours worth of what could be a meaningful sermon for more sleep? Now that I play it back like that, boy, I'm pathetic.
My last post was about changing everything I feared I had become. I had lost the enthusiasm to live like everyday was my last day, to live life with no regrets, to just do what I want to do and be happy with it. And now, thanks to this song, I think I gained it back.
The last paragraph I put "I think" in the paragraph on purpose. Haha. Because, if I live life doing what I want to do, it would be a very chaotic life. Haha. I want to live like everyday is my last day, and live everyday with righteousness, going to bed everyday knowing, that what I've done today is the right thing to have been done, whether it makes me feel awful or not. I want to live life doing the right thing. I remembered I lived life like that in Sec2, always trying my very best to do the right thing, whether it made me feel horrible afterwards because of my own emotions or not. And in sec2, I lived life feeling horrible and emo most of the time. But at least in sec2, I had lived life according to my own principles. Going through sec3 and sec4, I know, I had lost my way. And now at the age of 17, I have found back a new way. A life of righteousness, a life of goodness, a christian life =). And I feel great living it =).
PS I was late to church today. My timing was spectacular. I reached there at the same time the sermon ended.
[Keith wrote this, thanks for reading! =D]Y,
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