Something bad happened today. Not saying what. Just saying I'm upset at this Generation of kids.
Future Parents, please. Beat your children. If you don't, you fail at parenting.
On a totally different note of which I'm still upset over, I feel really broken inside. Lol. I was totally wrong about an assumption. An assumption which I assumed to be right. And being wrong never felt so horrible. At least I tried to make it feel right to me. It's like flying ever higher in the sky, just feeling the breeze in your face and gazing in awe at the wonders below, before spotting a hunter with a sniper rifle. boom, headshot. Plummetplummetplummetplummetplummet. Yes, this is about a girl =). Talking to her, making her laugh is something that never fails to put the smile on my face. But obviously, she doesnt see me the same way I see her. It's like the song "Obviously" by McFly. "Obviously, she's outta my league, I know that she'll never be mine and I know I'll, never will be good enough for her." It's not that too. She likes another, more superior guy in a way. Just like the song by McFly.
"Recently I've been,
Hopelessly reaching
Out for this girl,
Who's out of this world.
Believe me.
She's got a boyfriend
He drives me round the bend
Cos he's 23
He's in the marines
He'd kill me
But so many nights now
I find myself thinking about her now.
'Cause obviously,She's out of my league
But how can I win
She keeps draggin' me in and
I know I never will be good enough for her. "
I don't know. I've thought myself to turn away from love because of things like this. Love, the very feeling that fills you up and warms your heart, is ironically eating into me and giving me the cold shoulder manyatime. Thinking about how talking to her would always brighten up my day no matter what, is always trodded over by the FACT, that she likes someone else and doesn't see me as much more as a friend. And I'm sure most of you know, once you're labelled as a "friend" it's hard to get any further than that. It's like, once you're in this special "friend zone" in a person's mind, you can never get out unless you do something outrageous. Right now? I'm Mayor of the friend zone. That's probably the worst of the worst. So? Right now, I'm just hopelessly reaching, just blindlessly talking to her to make myself feel better, ignoring the fact that it's just so stupid and pathetic of me.
Damn. I hate the ups and downs of life if it comes by too fast. Too steep a hill. The moment I go up, I go down, and the moment I go down, I go back up again. And I'm still pissed about what happened this afternoon. Argh.
Random lines from the new Westlife song "Something right"
"I believed that love was overrated
‘Till the moment I found you "
"It’s because of you I feel so lifted
I’ve been looking at my life from higher ground
Never thought I’d be so elated
You’re the one that turned it all around. "
And now that I've realized something, it's all turned back around and now I'm looking at my life from back down.
Love makes your soul crawl out from its hiding place. Zora Neale Hurston
[Keith wrote this, thanks for reading! =D]Y,
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