B B A L L B O Y .

Saturday, October 27, 2007

Got my grades back. Didn't go with my mum cuz had debates. Shall elaborate later on.

Subject /Mark/Grade
English / 64 / B4
Chinese / 53 / C6
A maths / 42 / E8
E maths / 66 / B3
Biology / 57 / C5
Science(p,c)/69 / B3
Humanities/ 57 / C5
CME / A
PW / B

Total: 408 / 700 Percentage: 58.3%
L1R4: 20 L1R5: 26
Conduct: very good Attendance: 66/70

Comments: Keith is a cheerful and pleasant student. He has displayed leadership qualities and effective communication skills and these qualities have enabled him to work well in teams( Honestly, I prefer writing presentations alone. I dunno, I guess I work better that way. Eh. No idea when I have "displayed" these qualities and skills ). Keith is capable of better results if he can be a little more focused in his studies and concentrate more in class( Which is just saying I sleep too much in class, and that I would get better results if I had not done so. Eh.). Continue to work hard and strive for better results.

Holistic Report Card
Care & Concern for Others: Demonstrates(D) strongly(S)
Communication: D very strongly(VS)
Innovation & Enterprise: DS
Leadership: DS
Teamwork: DVS
Physical Fitness: Acceptable
Test Award: Gold

I feel that I did sufficiently well, despite my higher expectations of it. English and Science one mark away from a higher grade =_=". Amaths was an expected failure. Expected at least a B from my humanities and Biology. Oh well. I just realized, that the days I spent at OBS, counts as absent days for me =P. I have no comment for the comments. Lol.

Anyway. About today's debates, we lost every single debate. Not feeling bad or anything. We had barely prepared our stuff 3days before, and never practiced. The other schools had debates as CCAs, and prepared for a week. The debaters from other school's weren't very intimidating, just very confident. Had fun nonetheless =D. Mr Teo said that a stereotypical debater has a big ego. Big ego = big head. I saw a debater, who has too large a head on his shoulders. Lol. I admit, I'm egotistical, and I'm trying to change that. But would that affect my debating? lol. That's my day for today. Pretty average.

I'll just sit here, and wait then.

[Keith wrote this, thanks for reading! =D]Y,
9:52 PM

Friday, October 26, 2007

Typically, it's my life. Always having its ups and downs, but has more than its fair shares of downs. Most likely, it would start with one or two absolutely fabulous day(s), then have only one horrifyingly horrible day, then one absolutely plain day. BLEH. Shan't elaborate much on sadness. That was the last post=p. Haha.

Firstly, I did horrible for my results. Or rather, horribly plain. Failed two, Amaths and bio. No A's, and only 1B4. Combined sciences, was a C5. Now, I take pride in my sciences. So the biggest blow to me was my failed bio. Chemistry got an A2, physics barely passed. Ironically, I did not study at all for Chem, and put all my effort into bio. See the contrast of results? On the bright side, training was good. Had physical.

Tuesday, I helped out with sec2 interclass dodgeball. I think. Forgot what day. Was fun. Surprisingly, sec2 girls were quite hiong. Lol. There was a band I think. Was it on tuesday? Eh. They played EXCELLENTLY. Didn't dare enth much tho. Typical singaporean=p. Too shy to express feelings. Haha. After school went to changi adventure camp, tested out some games, then went back school play bball.

Can't remember what we did on Wednesday. Was advisor for sec1 inter class dodge ball? Much more hiong than the sec2 lols. After school played some PEC team building games. Was fun playing flour! Think of it as, clean dust. Threw it at each other, rubbed into our hair. We were white people. Lol. Lame. Like snow =). When it came to planning more games, I was pretty much tuckered out, so I napped for a while. Was at the first floor near the lifts there. I pretty much laid down and rested. The sky was nice, and the wind was perfect, so I napped. Helped out abit later on, then on to training. Lol, everyone's bodies hurting like heck, so couldn't do much.

Had lots of fun during dodgeball. I caught four balls in two matches! Knocked quite a few guys out. Won everyone, but tied one because the other side cheated and won. Didn't won 1st overall (we won 2nd), but who cares. We won the winning class =)! Had debate meeting after school, discussion was soso, but I managed to type out my speech, and I think it's pretty good. After that went JAMMING with daniel, joshua, tom, max, nicholas yeo and faizal. First time playing drums with other people playing =P. Went out pretty well. Jamming costs a bomb though.

Today, had lots of exam feedbacks. Slept through every single one of them. How awesome am I? Feeling guilty about failing, but sleep through every class that would possible increase my marks next coming test. After recess went for some PEC stuff, then planned for some NE activty. After school, went for training. Physical first two hours. Aye. Pretty much it. Throughout today, pretty much discussed with said people about playing other songs, and how nice( or funny) we played.

This down pretty much ruined my day abit. I'm sure, most people know about this sec1 girl liking me right? Well, the other day, I kinda found out that her feelings changed already, like I expected. It was probably a puppy love crush. Happens all the time. Upon realization of this fact, I was kinda relieved and depressed at the same time. I mean, relieved because lots of people has been teasing me about it and I didn't like it. Also, i was thinking about "her" again, and I didn't dare do anything about my current situation, for fear of ruining whatever it may be. So when I found out about it, I felt relieved. One less headache for me to think about. Depressed because, to be honest, to be really REALLY honest, that sec1 girl was the very first girl that has ever said that she likes LIKEs me. I knew it was a puppy love crush, and that it would pass on very quickly, but you hafta admit, it was flattering. I know that there are rumours about who likes who about everyone, and I'm no exception. I would just like to make it clear. I DO NOT like LIKE THEM IN THAT WAY, AND NEITHER DO THEY. They're my friends, that's all. Anyway, was quite depressed about it, cuz few months back, she would kinda sms me everyday, so it wasn't boring. These few days, after exams, my phone was quite lonely. No sound coming out from it whatsoever, aside from my mp3 anyway. And, when she confessed to me over a SMS, simply put, I wasn't very sincere. It reminded me of my own confession to "that" girl, I wasn't very sincere or suave putting it across, and so I got a very simple, downright answer, of which I will not reveal. Karma? Maybe. So yeah, when I found out, I was relieved and depressed. That's my life.

They say you can never ever forget someone that you once loved, but I believe, that they can be replaced. Not in that awful way when you're in a relationship and you suddenly have a change of heart, but like when you can't forget someone. Who knows, suddenly I might see that smile of hers that I fell in love with on someone elses face. And hey, if you're(her) reading this, just so you know, I respect your answer. I just wish it would happen, ya know, like every lovelorn loser that failed at a confession attempt.

With all that out of the way, I can probably put my mind into all the tasks at hand now. Interschool debates are tml. Have to really catch up on my studies. Have to put my all in the upcoming VAS tournament. Have to train to be at my very best. And be ready for top of the mountain: East zones. If I fail at this promise of mine, I might get so depressed I might even shave my head. Hey, might is a nice word.

[Keith wrote this, thanks for reading! =D]Y,
10:34 PM

Saturday, October 20, 2007

Some thoughts going through my head right now:
- Life's not perfect, there are always its ups and downs. But why are the up moments always so fleeting but the down moments lasting?

- You and your best friends are similar in lots of ways. But then, why are you so different from them in a bad way? Besides the obvious fact that they're all a head above you, they're all better than you in some way. How can someone feel that he has so much in common with people and so odd one out with them at the same time?

- If you're always there for your loved ones, why is it that it feels like no one's there for you? You're the one who hates it when your friends are down, and most of the time who ensures that your friends have a smile on your faces. You love to put smiles on people's faces. But, as all these times will come, who will be the one to put a smile on yours?

- As everything comes down to it, height is just so important. You tell a joke, no one but your best friends gets it. Your best friends tell the joke, every gets it. They're all a head above you. No one cares when you get good results for your exams, but all your friends gather to cheer up you best friends when they didn't get a good grade. You have almost the same personality as your best friends, but they get their jokes from you. Then why is it that they're more popular( I hate the idea of popularity.) than you in more ways than you know? Head. Over. Shoulders. Over. YOU.

- You were always there for her. You're the one with the listening ear and the advice when she was troubled. And you have never asked much from her. But when she doesn't need anything from you, she doesn't talk to you. She doesn't even pay attention to you most of the time! When it came to casual fun get togethers, she would always go talk to your best friend and leave you walking around just admiring the scenery. When she had emotional baggage to lose, you're the one she comes to. You're like a rubbish dump. You keep telling yourself "No one's perfect. She does this without realising it. It's okay." Or is it really?

Conclusion: Life is just unfair. Agreed?

I think this emo streak might continue. I pray for the better.

[Keith wrote this, thanks for reading! =D]Y,
11:44 PM

Sometimes, we get so blinded with what others have and what we want to have, That maybe, just maybe, what we need is already right there in front of us.

This is something I quoted a few months ago. My heart agrees with this sentence, but the thing is, what if we can't see what's right there in front of us, even if we realize it IS in front of us? That's pretty much how I'm feeling right now. Like there's something missing in my life but I just can't figure out. I feel like if I rip my heart out there would be a chunk of it missing somewhere. I don't get it. I'm on great relations with my family, have absolutely great friends, healthy mind and body. And yet, despite the fact that these alone makes my life more lucky than probably 50% of the world, why do I feel like I need more, or rather, my life is still lack of something. Something's lack. This has to be the most emo I have ever felt. What's worst, I can't determine the source of it. As I gaze upon my little bro's peaceful sleeping face, contrary to what normal people would think, I realized this is the loneliest night ever.

There are plenty of fish in the sea, but there's too much sea for the fish.

[Keith wrote this, thanks for reading! =D]Y,
10:52 PM

Friday, October 19, 2007

What Your Pizza Reveals

Your appetite is pretty average. You don't go overboard - but you don't deprive yourself either.

You are a very picky pizza eater. Not any pizza will do. You fit in best in the Northeast part of the US.

You like food that's traditional and well crafted. You aren't impressed with "gourmet" foods.

You are generous, outgoing, and considerate with your choices.

You are carefree and friendly. You should consider traveling to Hawaii.

The stereotype that best fits you is emo. You think you're special... and you kind of are.

What Does Your Pizza Say About You?

EMO =D. HAWAII. EMO HAWAII SO KAWAII>_<. loller.

You Should Rule Saturn

Saturn is a mysterious planet that can rarely be seen with the naked eye.

You are perfect to rule Saturn because like its rings, you don't always follow the rules of nature.
And like Saturn, to really be able to understand you, someone delve beyond your appearance.

You are not an easy person to befriend. However, once you enter a friendship, you'll be a friend for life.
You think slowly but deeply. You only gain great understanding after a situation has past.

What Planet Should You Rule?

Rings of saturn.....?

You Are 81% Real

There's hardly a person on this earth more real than you are.
You have no problem showing people who you are, flaws and all.
For you, there couldn't be any other way. Because it's way too stressful to live an inauthentic life.
You're very comfortable with yourself. And because of this, you're able to live an exciting, interesting, and challenging life.

How Real Are You?

=DDDD. Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Your Personality Profile

You are elegant, withdrawn, and brilliant.
Your mind is a weapon, able to solve any puzzle.
You are also great at poking holes in arguments and common beliefs.

For you, comfort and calm are very important.
You tend to thrive on your own and shrug off most affection.
You prefer to protect your emotions and stay strong.

The World's Shortest Personality Test

Meh. RAndom posts.

[Keith wrote this, thanks for reading! =D]Y,
10:47 PM

Thursday, October 18, 2007

You Have a Choleric Temperament

You are a person of great enthusiasm - easily excited by many things.
Unsatisfied by the ordinary, you are reaching for an epic, extraordinary life.
You want the best. The best life. The best love. The best reputation.

You posses a sharp and keen intellect. Your mind is your primary weapon.
Strong willed, nothing can keep you down. Your energy can break down any wall.
You're an instantly passionate person - and this passion gives you an intoxicating power over others.

At your worst, you are a narcissist. Full of yourself and even proud of your faults.
Stubborn and opinionated, you know what you think is right. End of discussion.
A bit of a misanthrope, you often see others as weak, ignorant, and inferior.

What Temperment Are You?

I'm a narcissist. Cool. Misanthrope? Hm, true. "A bit", "often". Often = not all the time =p. Abit of a often, is still way less than often =).

Your Karaoke Theme Song is "YMCA"

You're the type of person who can't have fun unless everyone else is right there with you having a blast.
You have an amazing knack for figuring out what people want, and you don't mind going the extra mile to make them happy.

The spotlight is something you enjoy on occasion, but you prefer that not all the attention is on you.
If you've gotten people to sing or dance along with you, then you're song is a success.

You might also sing: "Macarena," "Hot, Hot, Hot" or "Stayin' Alive"

Stay away from people who sing: "The Greatest Love of All"

What's Your Karaoke Theme Song?

YOUNG MAN. There's no need to feel down. I SAID, YOUNG MAN. And so on. =D.

You Should Play the Guitar

You're very independent - both in spirit and in the way you learn.
You can teach yourself almost anything, even if it makes your fingers bleed.

You're not really the type to sit patiently through a music lesson - or do things by the book.
It's more your style to master the fundamentals and see where they take you.

Highly creative and a bit eclectic, you need a wide range of music to play.
You could emerge as a sensitive songwriter... or a manic rock star.

Your dominant personality characteristic: being rebellious

Your secondary personality characteristic: tenacity

What Musical Instrument Should You Play?

Coincidentally, I'm thinking about switching from drums to guitar. Just a thought. Money's tight tho.

Your Love is Based on Friendship

For you, chemistry doesn't really happen without compatibility.
Companionship and openness are the most important parts of your relationships.
Whoever you love should be your best friend.
And falling in love with a good friend is never out of the question.

Why your love can last: You only fall for people who you truly understand... and who truly understand you

Why your love can fail: Sometimes you don't admit how important physical chemistry is to you

What Is Your Love Based On?

This is... interesting. End of comment.

[Keith wrote this, thanks for reading! =D]Y,
10:45 PM

Monday, October 15, 2007

Haha. 5day weekend mostly spent gaming. Started on friday this old RPG game I found: Disgaea: Hour of Darkness. Been spending all my time on it since. Only typing this out now cuz brother's using the PS2. Saturday rained most of the day, so only played awhile in the afternoon before going home to chiong on this. Sunday, woke up, played roughly from morning to midnight. Yes, I shit you not. Today, morning woke up played till like 2pm? lol. School's starting tomorrow. Gotta get back into the routine. Wonder what's going to happen at school tml, what with the examinations over? Never see most of my classmates in these five days, would be nice to see them again tml. Wednesday has volleyball training. YAY. Gonna be a nice, fun sweat. Competition's in mid november, so we better be ready=p. Daryl and alvin won't be able to compete tho ='(. One's going to zhuhai and the other japan, =(. Lol, guys if you're reading this, get me souvenirs!

[Keith wrote this, thanks for reading! =D]Y,
2:38 PM

Thursday, October 11, 2007

First post to commerate the end of EOYs. YAY. Don't feel like blogging now, so shall keep it short and sweet.

Things to do during holidays:
- Improve immensely in Volleyball
- Improve immensely in Basketball
- Physical training; Increase the height of my jump, my stamina and durability
- Light revision; chinese, geography, all my weak subjects
- one 12hour sleep
- Get a Job?
- Spend less?
- Enjoy life=D

Enjoy your breaks all! Before we get our exam results back =).

[Keith wrote this, thanks for reading! =D]Y,
6:40 PM

Sunday, October 07, 2007

Just wanted to remind myself of things that was past. The things that were part of many's life journey.

OBS
Day1: Left school with big bag. Said goodbye to many people. Bus ride fun. Got on the ferry. Made some new friends, especially this one girl who asked some interesting questions. Played some games by our instructor JON when we got there. Packed our stall. Assigned roles. Off to Kayaking. Rained awhile but nevertheless after it went kayaking. Awesome. Went to learn to set up our tents. Took some time. Others cooked dinner. Went to shower. I got the biggest pot for dinner. Sleep. Bunked with alvin and tom.

Day2:Woke up, feeling horrible. Hard ground=p. Morning excersise. Felt better. Personal quiet time. Wrote or drew some stuff on paper but lost it now =(. Went to practice belaying around noon. Jon got alittle fed up with us. After that, went rock climbing. I almost made it. Second try, different wall, and with help from my friends, made it through. Went to pack our camping bag in the evening. Walked 2km to another camp. Everyone was dead tired after that. Set up our tents, had noodles, shared mine with Edel and zhongwei/daryl. Forgot who. Planned our "11km" hike. Jon asked us a question, who was our belayer in my life. I will forever remeber my answer. went to bed. We drank Orange juice =D.

Day3: My day as Day leader or something. Land expedition. Forgot that last word.Played a transforming game in the morn. Quiet time. Packed up our tents. Lost a waterbottle or two. Stole one from the other teams. Checked our stuff. One pack worth two people's stuff. Heavy as heck. Started on our route.It was hell at first, but got used to it. Every 2 or 3 km stopped for a rest. Volleyball back cracking technique came into use. Saw a HUGE spider. Got to every destinantion, including the top of someting somthing. It was beautiful. Waled back to another, more updated camp in the late evening. Was Awesome. Amazed that we completed this hurdle and didnt give up. Turned out we walked 35KM. Ate our dinner. Gobbbled it down. Set up our tents at 8 or so? Went to shower. It was AWESOME. First real shower in three days. The night feeling was nice. And went back to our tents. Most of our tents almost toppled down on us, but didnt. Was very cramped. Ours had sand in it. Nonetheless slept.

Day4: Woke up. Got our quiet time. Packed our tents up I think. At around 10, went for our sea expedition. Paired up with alvin and jing xuan. Alvin was the day leader. He was awesome and got awesome support. Unlike me ='(. Bit emo the days after that. I sat at the back of our tri-yak, with our food supplies. And off we went. The sea was in all of its magnificence. The waves were fun. Kinda like downtown east that swimming place near pasir ris. I have not enough social life to not know what that place is called. Somewhere near escape. Went round the island, through it into a swamp, climbed over a mudbank, helped a couple of peeps back onto their triyaks, and back into the open sea. The sea breeze felt great. Forced to pee in the sea =_=". Zhong wei first one to try. Couldn't do it cuz everyone was looking. Our destination was right in front of us so chionged back. Jon and jackie the other instructor were pleased with us. Did the GM celebration dance. All of us. Cleaned our triyaks. Then Alvin gave a speech. Awesome. Went for the jetty jump. Alvin shouted out his love for his gf and jumped. So did two other guys. To me, that was the greatest act of love I ever saw anyone did for someone. Wanted to know how it feels like but realistically it was an imposibility. Shouted up my commitment/oath, and jumped. Felt like a whole new person. Got back up, the sea breeze was mighty cold. But my heart was heated up from whatever I just did. The sunset was amazing. Went to shower and ate our dinner. Packed our stuff and got to Jon, but was already quite late. He was mad at us. Walked back to our base camp late at night, and got back when everyone else had their tents up. We got ours up anyway. WAs the best tent we ever made. Alvin made ours, and it was so damned spacious. I loved it =D. Went back to pack our stuff back into the stalls. I slacked abit, and noticed everyone was emo. It WAS the last day after all. All the wonderful memories. Went back to our tents and slept. Jon scolded some other group. Heck care, went to sleep.

Day5: Woke up, and everyone was all depressed. Very last day. Morning we went to write in our journals. It was all so very depressing. Packed our stalls for the final time. Brought our original bags to another place. Jon told his final story. Most of us was all depressed but iwas an appropiate story. The pencil maker. I can recall it at will. Payed for our photos. Went to wait for our ferry back. Bought our obs shirts. Got on the ferry. A girl was kinda emo, and I wanted to cheer her up but didnt know what to do. Heard that the girls cried before the second ferry came. Jon cried too. Me was sad. Got on our bus. Turns out, my mom called the school. MrLian said it out loud to everyone. Totally embarrassing. On the bus, I could tell that most were still emo, but the rest were elated to be back in civilisation. Got back to school, and got a warm welcome from everyone back. Mostly from Daniel. He gave everyone hugs. He teared up cuz he was so happy everyone was back. We yam seng-ed and everyone went on our merry way. Me, alvin and daryl went to see our juniors. God, everyone improved so much. Even though he didnt show it, I could tell that the coach was happy we were back. I love my team oh so very much. Went to eat with our OBS bunch. We all missed fast food, hawker food, etc. I gorged myself with whatever money we had left. Went back to school. Played basketball awhile till 6? Shared a taxi ride with alvin and got home. I hugged my mum and told her I loved her, then lied down on my bed reflecting on this monumental five days of life.

Jon told many, many stories, all having their morals. I changed alot from day1 to day5. It was thought that OBS would be a passage of life. They were right. But, as we learnt in OBS, OBS was just a taste of life. Our real OBS journey was to begin the moment we leave the island. Life itself, is the passage of life. Wow. I miss obs. But, my secondary life remained the same, sadly. Whereas a couple of my friends lives change so much for the better. This always happens to me. Nevertheless, I will not give up on this life. Things always change for the better. If it's easy than it's not worthwhile.

To serve, to strive and not to yield.

[Keith wrote this, thanks for reading! =D]Y,
6:56 PM

Saturday, October 06, 2007

RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH! MY MOTHER'S BEEN READING MY BLOG! AAAAAAAAH! Considering what's on the front page of this blog, it's both a good thing and a bad thing.

"Mom, if you're reading this, we need more crackers and stuff. It gets hungry at night!

[Keith wrote this, thanks for reading! =D]Y,
10:02 PM

Friday, October 05, 2007

Half way point of EOYs =). Just 4 more papers to go and its my grand ultimate mega hoochie choochie whoochie damned FREEDOM. English, was surprisingly, challenging to say the least. It was always either too easy to be true or just difficult enough that you'd want to masticate a live baby. BOTH paper 1 and 2. Social studies, was.... interesting. I studied up on an old topic and it came out =D. I've learnt how to pick my apples from that paper. I didn't have time to do finish (obviously) , and managed to do finish just ONE 7mark question in the nick of time. The thing is, i should have started to do the 7marks question first, then start on the essays. That way I'd at least have a surplus of 3marks =). Emaths, was hard. And contrary to urban belief (ha!), it would mean that the Amaths paper would be cake. ALL LIES!!! Lol. It's like getting attacked by a vicious gang of butterflies. Big, angry malicious butterflies! Chinese, if I just pass, I would thank whatever deity that would be most readily available. Hello Islam and Hinduism, now's your chance!Geography, same. I decided to stay up late to study, but I just took a moment to rest my head at about 12midnight, and I fell asleep. Simple as that. Woke up at 4, wanted to study, fell back to sleep. Rushed a whole chapter before school started. Praise the green revolution! So far, this would be my predicted results: English = B3/4, Social studies = B3/4, Emaths = B3/4, Chinese = B4/C5, Geography = B4, Amaths = E7/C6/C5. Looks like I woulda have to count on my sciences. The subjects that I have an interest in =D! I would expect an A in both, no exceptions. Course, my target is all Bs, but after all the tests, to hell with 'em. Can't wait for the 5day weekend after the exams. It's party day and night! And maybe it could be time for that 12hour sleep I've always been dreaming off. And, after that, It's probably back to volleyball training. Oh, how've I missed shouting my lungs out, and training to be my best.

After the exams, it's four months of training before the East zones: the very last chance to get to the Nationals. And I swear; I WILL BRING GMS(S) TO THE NATIONALS. I will not and cannot fail myself now. Lack of training attention and expectations are what kept me from the starting lineup for the past three years. Given the two, I have no other reason to fail. So what if east zone is filled with all the best schools. We almost beat them two years ago when we were sec1. True, I sucked good enough to not play, but I'm better now, and the whole team's still way better than me. I knew it from the very start. We're a great team.

Demand nothing. Expect everything.

[Keith wrote this, thanks for reading! =D]Y,
9:19 PM