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Friday, August 31, 2007
I want the cat slide!
Got back my progress report. To me, it's a major improvement, but at the same time a disappointment. 2 A1s in Mathematics, one fail in chinese. Average grade B3, ecstatic about it. BUT I was aiming for an A2 overall average=p.
5marks to go, One final year examinations left. GAMBATTE JIA YO ALL THE WAY!
[Keith wrote this, thanks for reading! =D]Y,7:12 PM
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
Oh MAH god. The logic in this comic is simply magnificent.
Parents: Spanking with canes is out of style. Believe in the hose!
Nothing cheers me up more than funny comics=D.
Except basketball=p. No idea why's my text underlined. Oh well,. Tml's A maths test. Jia You!
[Keith wrote this, thanks for reading! =D]Y,7:31 PM
Monday, August 27, 2007
Every penny I spend is a burden to you. Well, how exactly does it help when you let ME feel the burden? I know how much you earn. I try to save whenever I can. Its hard for you to make money, and even harder to let me spend some of it, I know. I offer to take up a part time job, but you refuse. Are you purposely trying to make me do the things you want to do? You say doing part time may affect my studies, okay I understand. How the heck will learning PIANO affect anything? I know its a burden to the money, which is why I offer to take up part time and give up my drums lesson. *sigh*. This, for once, could actually be educational and you don't LIKE IT?
You know what? I just don't know anymore.
[Keith wrote this, thanks for reading! =D]Y,You know what? I just don't know anymore.
8:54 PM
Friday, August 24, 2007
My elder brother forgot his WoW cards deck, so he called me to bring it to the bus stop, which is about 300-500m away? I had to get there in 5min. Piece of cake, elementary, easy as ABS so on and so forth. Lol, he rushed from the MRT to that bus stop, which was about 200-400m? He was panting like siao. Lolz I didn't even sweat much, more of water escaped through my skin=p. Come to think of it, this is actually the first time I did my bro a real favour. Not one of those"Help me answer the phone." "Off the light please" kind of favours, but a favour that really required effort on my part. We still call each other KorKor and DiDi for crying out loud=p. Still, it would be funny if I called him Cleon and he called me Keith, wouldn't feel right, so I'm not complaining=p.
Weekend now, so feeling alot better. The emo is just covering my middle portion of my body, but I hide it with clothes=p. Weekends never ceases to relieve me. I feel like a working man after a 5days 9 to 5 work schedule. Not much stress, but feel like I should do better for my studies. Woah. What just happened? Did I just type out I should do better for my studies? I normally just type out what's on my mind, so yeah. WTH WAS STUDIES DOING ON MY MIND?! ICK ICK GET IT OOOOFFFFFFF!
*Ahem* So, as I was saying, my studies could do with a little push. Chem & physics not really admirable, 21/35 and 18 1/2 / 30 respectively. And I really think my sciences are my best subjects, so yeah, better work harder for end of year!
Isn't it funny how the heart wavers?
Some days ya feelin' low.
Some days ya feelin' high.
Some days scientists bang their heads claiming that feelings have nothing to do with the heart.
So since these last few days were lower than I can imagine,
these next few days will the HIGHEST ever.
[Keith wrote this, thanks for reading! =D]Y,9:04 PM
Thursday, August 23, 2007
I used to have a reason for coming to school, whether it be to hang with friends or learning, it is both very fulfilling. That is, it gives a sense of satisfaction. I no longer feel that way whenever I leave school. It is always exciting to see friends or for the very few of us, exciting to learn, so I usually anticipate the next day of "glorious" school. The feeling of excitement is gone.
I used to be one of the few who loved to go to school; now I simply dread the thought.
I used to wake up with a spring everyday cuz I wanted to reach school quickly; now I dread even opening my eyes.
I used to be hyper in the morn and sleep in the later classes; now I sleep close to the whole day.
I used to enjoy the mathematics, knowing I can reap the rewards during the exams; now, I pretty much don't give a fuck.
I used to play basketball everyday, recess, after school, weekends; now I only get to play on tuesdays, thursdays, saturdays, and any recess that I feel like sweatin'.
I used to ignore food for basketball; now its one of the extremely few pleasures I look forward to at school.
It goes on. I lost my reason for loving school, the one place where its compulsory to meet friends=p. What do I go to school for? Everything's the same. The same friends I go to school with, the same game I always play. Something... something just feels different. Like a part of me is missing even though nothing "significant" happened. Can something disappear even tho nothing has happened? I don't know. I just wish I did know. It feels horrible not knowing. It feels horrible to feel this way. I know something is missing from my life, but I just don't know what. I.. just want everything to change for the better. Something that would shake my life and be remembered for ages to come. Heck, I WANT CHANGE. The emo is creeping up onto me like that freaky suit in Spiderman3. Emo is fun to make fun of and act, but simply horrible to actually BE emo.. I'm.................. feeling really really emo. It's like I'm a kid with an all you can eat candy coupon that's available for one last day but the store's closed.
It’s not just in school that I feel this way. It’s everyday of my life. It’s like I’ve lost my reason to live, only that I’m still alive and well. I wake up for school, shower, sleep on the car ride to school, sleep before school starts(playing ball only 2 out of 5 days), sleep during maths lesson, barely absorbing anything learnt in school, volleyball after school, no volleyball play basketball, go home, shower, eat play com, do homework, sleep and the cycle restarts. I hate being emo, but then it's how I feel now.
Please. Somebody. Anybody. Please, save me from myself.
[Keith wrote this, thanks for reading! =D]Y,7:12 PM
Saturday, August 18, 2007
Came early to 108 to shoot some hoops with Alvin. Didn't get to play much, two big groups were already there, and when they left, it started to rain. Went to school to play. I really love Basketball. It brightens up my day. Or week, for this matter. Bought for Alvin a FBT jersey and pants for his birthday. Sleeveless jerseys rock! Played a new game called 21. Damn fun, includes almost every important aspect of the game. MrChin came to play, and like always, he owned=_=". Went off at about 1.45pm, onwards to Mac. Met Daniel, Zhongwei and those PECs who went for sports quiz, and we got 3rd among 27schools! All of us changed, met more ppl and off to bugis to celebrate his early birthday=D! The real day is on Monday=p. Due to my carelessness, my plan to eat Sakae Sushi's all you can eat student meal was ruined because it's not available on weekends. Stupid me. We all ate there anyway.
NEVER going back there without a parent. Subtotal was $66.50, with a 10% surcharge and a 7% GST= $77. Heck, those numbers were scary. 17% of the bill was unused. Good Service Tax amounted to them just clearing the table and serving the food. Heck, I should get a Good Manners Rebate for saying thank you all the time. Even if i did wait 30 WHOLE MINUTES FOR SOME STUPID CHICKEN which was delicious^^.
Went back to 108, played the best ball of my life. Pardon my Bball slang=p, I mean the very best games ever. The best was the very last match I played before going home. It was a match against ppl from Mr Chin's church group, Kenneth, Reggie, and two other guys. And yeah, those two named ones were way taller than me=). Man, Me and Aaron(my primary school friend) were so focused during the game! Possibly the most focused game we ever played. It was 3v4, me and Aaron and someone else=p, against Kenneth Reggie and one sec1 and one sec2=p. Even tho yeah we did have the advantage in the way that the two lower secs didn't have much experience, but hey, not only were the two named ones were tall, but both are skillful and have LOADS of experience. We won! To be fair, Kenneth was an extreme sharp shooter, but today he was wearing jeans and slippers. The score was 11-10. I know if he was in proper attire and another two proper teammates they could've won, but then we would also have to have one more team mate of our choosing =D. Just so happy that we won! If we lost at that level of focus, man would we be upset. We would be so upset it would be as if we found out that we have to go back a secondary school level next year.
Read a book a good friend of mine brought today. Yup, it's about basketball=D.
If losing hurts enough to make you want to practice more, then you are a PLAYER.
Practice is repetition.
Kinda forgot the rest. Borrowing it next week. Did some thinking myself too. What was difference between today when I'm really focused in playing ball, and on normal days when I don't want to lose. That was it. There is a difference between playing to win and playing to not lose. Sometimes when I play, I see these tall guys and think to myself: No way am I gonna lose to these guys. Then I make reckless shots, stupid passes, and lose the game. But today, I saw these guys that I never played with for oh so long, and I really wanted to win. That was the difference. What I just don't get is, both times I play with people who are taller than me, what exactly was the difference? This is all what I could come up with: I don't want to lose to these guys, and we want, and can win these guys. I don't really quite get the simplicity of it, but hey. I have plenty of time to figure it out.
1 on 1 basketball isn't all about
Who has more power
Who has more speed
Who is the better shooter
Who is taller
Who's feelin' it today
Or generally,
Who is on form and who's not
Who has a bad shooting day
It's about who has
the mental capacity to defeat your opponent in a way only you can.
"I can't shoot today, bettwer find another way to win."
"This guy's weak on his left. Fake right, go left."
"Posture's too low. Shoot!"
When it comes down to it, it all depends on the person who knows how to use what he's got. That's what 1 on 1 basketball is all about. Mental Capacity. At least, that's what it is to me.
[Keith wrote this, thanks for reading! =D]Y,10:14 PM
Thursday, August 16, 2007
Day1.
Bid goodbye to all my classmates. Really happy and ecstatic that all of them wished me goodbye and a fun trip. Good sign bad sign? Compared luggage with everyone else. Everyone else was so much more compact! With us leaving and the ZhuHai people arriving, it seemed as tho they came to replace us. Hm. Mr Lian gave us a briefing, and then all the guys gave Daniel one massive hug! We promised, whatever we do, we'd do it for him=p. The bus came, and everyone boarded it with happy faces. We all thought it was gonna be a whole five days of fun, away from school. We were all half-right. On the bus, everyone was all high. Can't remember what was said, but it was a hell of fun. Reached the jetty, lined up, waited awhile and then we got our grouping. I was grouped in the group "Armstrong" along with Alvin, but Daryl was grouped into "Cousteau" =(. When we got on the boat, it was my turn to be high=p. I cracked jokes at people on the boat all the way. Little did I know, that was the start of my change. When everyone was gathered at camp2, our instructors were introduced. Cousteau= Jackie, Armstrong = Jonathan( JON ). We were split into our own groups, introduced ourselves to the instructor and off we went to pack our store rooms. At the start, I almost couldn't be bothered to help pack. I only helped when I saw a need to, the rest of the times slacking. I really regret it. We were really far behind the other groups, and I should've helped. When everything was all packed up, we grabbed our life jackets and off we went to kayak! Or tri-yak for that matter, three in one kayak. I was at first with Tom and Alvin, but once Jon saw we were all boyboyboy girlgirlgirl, changed to boygirlgirl. I was with LiYing and XinYu after that. Needless to say, everyone had fun=p. Again, we were far behind, so we rushed to put everything back to pitch up our tents, cook dinner and shower, not in order. Being drenched in seawater stinks on ice. First time pitching up a tent, I'll say I did not quite badly. The girls cooked, and the guys pitched the tents. Tents pitched we all went off for the most relaxing part of the day: the SHOWERS. The girls already showered first=_=". Man, even if the waters were freezing, mind numbingly cold, no one cared. I was the very last one to eat too=_=". But, it does have its benefits. I get the remainder of the whole pot of canned cocktail sausages, canned ikan bilis and a quarter pot full of rice. Everyone had so much less! Even tho the cocktails weren't cooked, and I loathe ikan bilis to a considerable measure, I DIDN'T CARE. I ate more than my fair share, sharing with Edel and Alvin! It was soooo much more satisfying then apples, biscuits, and bread. After that, it just felt so much more comfortable being in casual clothing. Then we had to meet with with JON. I noticed on the third day, then every time we gathered in a circle, I would really just play around, making really sarcastic remarks, trying to get everyone to laugh, only to fail horribly. I shall continue this part on day4=p. He gave us a talk, and a story of which I miss terribly(We all miss JON.WAAAAAAAAAAAAAA ='(. I miss his stories='( ), and we had to do an activity called Long line". We had to draw something and pass the pen without lifting it off the paper. Our drawings were hilarious, overlapping each other. After that, it was close to lights out, so we grabbed our stuff and head on out to our tents. Lol, my mum gave me a charm to "ward off evil spirits". I know and understanding it being the Chinese seventh month and all, but a charm is abit exaggerating. I was my first time sleeping in a tent, and since I brought a sleeping bag, it was relatively comfortable. I slept in a middle of Alvin and tom. I was literally a dwarf sleeping between two giants. My fear at that time was that both of them would roll on me in the middle of the night, suffocating me. What happened was much, much worse. Tom... FARTED. It was hard to sleep, as just coming to pulau ubin from what was like my heaven on earth-like lifestyle, made me miss home sooo much, and I wanted the five days to go by quicker. All this would change in a matter of 2 days. I thought of everyone and everything back home, and I miss it so much. I even sang the song that's in my blog now, every night at the camp=D!
To be continued...
To sum everything up:
Day 1= Goodbye, Arrival, kayaking, dinner sleep.
Day2= Breakfast, Morning"Workout", Rock climbing!, Trekking a mere 2km with full pack almost killed us to the next campsite.
Day3= 35km trek round the island finding checkpoints. Thought it was a mere 14km, and almost died with 2km. Reached camp1 with pride and achievement sweating on our bodies.
Day4= Kayaking 15km round, then through the island. Ate on the sea, swam in the sea, peed in the sea. No kidding. No sweat after 35km from day before.
Day5= Packed everything up, and was depressed the whole day. Even though this departure was anticipated from day1, feelings change. These five days are forever etched in my mind. We departed from Pulau Ubin, exchanged tearful goodbyes with our instructor JON, who we will forever remember as the person who was like our father who guided us when we were lost. Mention Jon to any OBS people and we will RANT about him forever.
Shall go into elaboration when I feel like it. I love Thursdays, and this one didn't fail me, so in a real good mood, so wrote about OBS. Past few days was really depressing for me. After coming back from OBS, a close friend of mine ignored me and paid all attention to my best friend. This depresses me so. The main thing is, me and my best friends went to OBS, so I see no reason for that to happen. This kinda led to the 2 earlier short emo posts. Eh. Stopping here.
Sometimes, we get so blinded with what others have and what we want to have,
That maybe, just maybe, what we need is already right there in front of us.
[Keith wrote this, thanks for reading! =D]Y,8:06 PM
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
I'm just so sick of love songs, just turn off the frikkin' radio.
[Keith wrote this, thanks for reading! =D]Y,9:57 PM
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
9:56 PM
Thursday, August 09, 2007
OBS is, a tremendous, life-altering, life-changing experience to whoever goes there the first time. Whoever goes there the second time would have all the meaning sucked right out of them. So of course, my whole perspective on life was changed. My eyes started to see things it failed to see before. I started to appreciate the things in my life that seemed to make me depressed before OBS.
On the trip back from OBS, I marvelled at the sight of buildings! Many, tall, wide, clean buildings! And traffic lights! Pretty, pretty traffic lights! Vehicles as far as the eyes can see! And wonderful, glorious AIR CON. Okay, starting to sound like a country bumpkin=p. Happens to anyway who's been away from modernization and technology for like five days. Got back to school, many people welcomed us back to school! The feeling was simply wondrous. To be back on pavement, painted pillars and walls, approved canteen food! When all was said and done, me Alvin and Daryl sped off to find our juniors. Yeah, we missed volleyball =D. It was a sight most refreshing, seeing all the juniors and the rest of the team training seriously. And everyone of them, I emphasize, EVERYONE of them improved in the one week span that we didn't train with them. One had the most solid receiving I had ever seen. Another had improved ALOT in his spiking. All had a much serious look on their faces. The feeling was indescribable, having been away a week and saw everyone improving. Motivated me as well. Reminded me of my goal, and a certain commitment I made at OBS =p. Played basketball after that. Surprisingly, after five days of not touching a ball, my skills have not deteriorated. In fact, I daresay I've even improved ^^. Was even more hyper dribbling the ball! GLEE! Went home at around 5+, to my nice-smelling, soft and comforting bed. Surprisingly, I only slept like 7hrs? And woke up at 730 without any help from an alarm whatsoever. And I wasn't even tired, more of a refreshed state. It's like my body had gotten use to the camp time=p. Even went to play basketball for the whole day after that! Laughed at alvin and daryl, one overslept and another was still sleeping o.0 I loved everything all over again after OBS!
I found out alot about myself during OBS. Like exactly what my limit was. Trekked for 35km with a full pack weighing like 10-20kg! And, we didn't even know it was 35km. It was a huge achievement for all of us. Drove ourselves to our limit, or maybe so we think. It made me realize how large our limit can be. Perserverance prevails when all else fails. I made a commitment during the jetty jump( NOT the before mentioned commitment). A commitment I swear to achieve. And a commitment I will not enclose=p. I walked to the plank thinking about my commitment. Turned back and I swear, I saw a picture of myself. Got freaked out and jumped, but not before shouting out my commitment=p. Upon further thinking, I realized it was my mind hallucinating my old self there, and thus emerging out of the waters was a new me. Kinda dramatic=p. Even got a haircut to further concrete my commitment(s)=p.
Life is like a bed of roses, tho beautiful upon sight, but upon closer inspection reveals sharp thorns. I started to appreciate everything I once hated, but reality rears its ugly head. It showed me just what else I was missing out on life. Before OBS, I was depressed at what I have in my life, because others have way more. The grass is greener on the other side, so they say. After OBS, I started to appreciate these things. Love it even. Reality sucks. It showed me just how much MORE I was missing out on life's treasures. So now, I'm like between both ends of loving the things I have now, and envying what others have. Also, after OBS, taking up the advice of instructor Jon, whom we all love and miss now =(, I took up some quiet time now and then. I discovered before OBS, I had an enlarged head. In simple terms, I was getting egotistical, looking up upon myself. I realized this right about the same time I started to lose everything I started to appreciated once I envied what others have. Right now, I'm trying to speak less, and hope my ego shrinks. I know talking alot emits confidence, but I'm trying to emit an air of quiet confidence. I DONT WANT TO BE EGOTISTICAL! I may have been egotistical before OBS, but I only realized it after OBS. Change is afoot.
Bound for Discovery, Changed for life. [Keith wrote this, thanks for reading! =D]Y,
9:45 PM
Friday, August 03, 2007
*ahem* Now that's out of the way, I'm back from OBS. Wee. =P. It was a tremendous life lesson all on its own, but as I'm too lazy to blog about what happened, I shall do it another time. There were alot of interesting morals there, so now I decide to share with everyone:
Coming together is the beginnning, working together is success.
Happiness is a butterfly, which, is just beyond your grasp, but sit quietly down, and it may alight up to you.
We are all teabags, each with its own different flavours.
It is the same sun that melts the wax but hardens the clay.
Many more will come up, but I'm tired=p. Sleepy. Hello Bed! Long time no see! [Keith wrote this, thanks for reading! =D]Y,
10:45 PM