Update.

I'm sorry Mr.Blogger, but Tumblr has become a very close and affectionate companion of mine. We've had a good long run, and I'm sure there's plenty of good memories in this store. Tumblr's been awesome, but then again, he doesn't offer the personal touch that you offer, Mr.Blogger.

Maybe I'll visit you more often? I understand that it's all give and give and give with you, but hey, here am I giving back to you :).

What on earth am I doing you're just a blog, lol.

Okay. Well. Um. Now, that was awkward. If it isn't obvious by now, well, I got sucked in by Tumblr! It's just... really attractive and offers so much at the cost of so little.

Why am I here now? Well, maybe for the anonymity? Maybe for kicks?

I'm bored.

But to be frank, seeing as this blog kind of journals my entire life down, or at least the parts I choose to remember, I think maybe an update would be in order,

Life's been a rollercoaster, as always. Ups and downs, but God is always there with me, doing whatever He can to make sure I understand what He's doing and trust Him on it. Right now, God is just awesome. As if human-made words could ever describe his Godliness.

Life as of right now, well. I miss basketball. I really want to compete. I feel ready and fit to compete. But as of right now, I don't see any competing down the road. God has other things in store for me, and I trust Him.

I have a crush, of which I've gone through a cycle/spiral of over-analysing and emotional highs & lows, until which I reminded myself that I want to stick to the age of 21 before I get attached. There are many things God wants me to do, and becoming attached... is not one of them I see in the road ahead for now.

But then again, who knows what God has in store for us? All we can hope to do is just be wise with the decisions in our life and trust God's will. If it's meant to happen, it will happen. If it's not meant to happen, well, no matter how hard you try, it won't happen. Or maybe the timing's wrong. It's confusing I know, but put it this way. As humans, God gave us the freedom to do anything we want, with his guidance. Now, being the sinful creatures that we became ever since Adam ate the forbidden fruit, this may lead to bad decisions on our part if we listen to the wrong voice. He gave us His Word, His Guide on how to be good, what are the right decisions to make, so that we KNOW how to be good.

But for the gray areas that we humans form with our minds, or are not wise enough to decipher which is right or wrong, or in many cases right or right-er, we go with God's Will. In another sense, what I mean is, given the freedom on this Earth, God gave us His Support in whatever we do. He gave us His Word to teach us, He gave us the Holy Spirit to guide us. He'll support every decision we make, that is, if it aligns with His Word. If it doesn't, then whatever we hope to achieve through that decision won't happen. Okay, I think I'll leave it at that. I'm going round and round in circles.

Harvest is growing, Hallelujah!

I broke down in tears yesterday. But I refused to back down because, in a very arrogant and self righteous sense, Harvest will need me to become stronger in spirit and in faith. God doesn't need me, but I'm honored that He chose me. I can't let him down, I can't let down the people who put their faith in me. Whatever tears that flowed down my face yesterday, were just reminders to myself that I'm just human. That I need God's Grace and Love to be felt ever more apparently in my life, to be depended on. Even though it was human interaction that I sought out more.

We are humen, and we are weak. We need to learn to depend on God for strength.

If you, the reader, whom I doubt will be any one other than me or my future spouse who may come and laugh at my humorous past, havent' figured it out by now, well, I'm writing this as though I'm speaking to myself. And, the first of this post's, I shall now declare: LOLLLLLLLLLLL

Alright, I guess that's it so far. Life's been getting better and worse at times, but I know I'm headed upwards and closer to the kingdom of heaven. Let's hope in the future, when I come back here, I'll get closer.

Never lose sight of your first love, Jesus Christ.

Love,
Keith from February 22, 2011.